The heart in the hand is like the heart on the sleeve. It also is from
Hindu, Buddhist and Catholic religious symbols. I will do self-portraits
when I'm depressed, just to make fun of myself and to thumb my nose at
everyone else I think are being too high and mighty. I kind of remember
doing the yellow background and thinking later that I don't like yellow.
I think that's where the manteca comes from, it reminded me of butter.
I'm trying to save the self-portraits, and I keep trying to make them
as bad as possible. At some point I hope to have at least 50 of them and
do an exhibit. It should keep people laughing.